Spring Shadows

The flowers are growing, the trees are sprouting leaves and warmer days are ahead. My day job has had to limit some services, but my schedule hasn’t changed much at all, for which I am thankful. Even so, this kind of work has it’s own challenges and I continue to wonder how much longer I can keep doing this. I’m not getting any younger. I’ve stayed with the same company for so long because I get great benefits and lots of paid time off. So there’s that.

Here in Pennsylvania, COVID cases are on the rise again, due to all the sociopaths who still refuse to wear masks or get vaccinated. You really see how widespread mental illness is in this country when you see all these people who still think the virus is a hoax, or that it alters your DNA, or that it was created by the government so that people would have to take a vaccine, thereby “controlling” them. You have to question the sanity of a person who willingly believes these whacked out conspiracy theories. I’m avoiding people as much as possible these days. I still have to go to work, however, but even then my contact with others is limited. The husband and I will go somewhere on the weekends, just to get out of the house for a few hours, but that is quite enough for me. Today we did a little shopping and stopped at Taco Bell to get something to eat. Of course, as soon as we walked in, an argument broke out between two of the customers. People are losing their minds.

I get my new tattoo next Friday, and I’ve taken the whole day off. It’s been a long while since my last tattoo, but this one will be on the back of my hand, so I’m not expecting it to be as painful as the ones on my neck were. After this tattoo heals, I want to take some new pictures for the updated version of my book. I’ve made it a little less formal and a bit more artistic and creative. I’ve expanded on some things and added some poetry and a few specific ‘flashback’ memories from favorite places and experiences. I’m still calling it Spells and Scars, but I’m dropping the tagline “My Personal Story of Magical Discovery” and changing it to “Confessions of a Gay Pagan“. I think this will be more interesting to potential readers.

I’ve become much less concerned these days about what others think, and I’m doing whatever makes me happy, whatever brings me peace. There was a time when I would say to myself, “I shouldn’t write that, so-and-so will be reading this and what will they think?”. Now I just don’t care anymore. I’m much more outspoken than I used to be. There are so many people on social media telling others what they should think, how they should practice, dictating what they can or cannot do. They will say you can’t do Yoga, chant mantras or do chakra work unless you’re Hindu. They will say you can’t use tarot cards unless you’re Romani. They will say you can’t burn sage unless you’re Native American. They will say you can’t connect with deities outside of your own culture. Bullshit, I say. Complete and utter bullshit. I will practice how I want, using any practices I want. I don’t mind being a rogue pagan.

The husband got his 2nd Moderna shot on Friday, so now we’re both fully vaccinated. We hope to go back to San Francisco and to Universal Orlando late in the year. I’ve been thinking about San Francisco alot lately. I miss it terribly. I write about some of my experiences there in Spells and Scars. We would move back there in a heartbeat if we could afford it.

Before the Taco Bell fiasco, we were at a used music store, and I picked up a CD from U2 and the soundtrack from “Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them“. Both were deluxe editions with bonus tracks and they were only a few dollars each. I also found a 6-disc collectors edition DVD of the original Dark Shadows, which I’ve become mildly obsessed with lately. We’ve been watching it every night when we have dinner. I also discovered they have recently released all the old novels as audiobooks on Amazon. I listen to audiobooks when I go to bed at night, so these will come in handy. It looks like there’s over 30 of them, and they’re fairly cheap.

These will keep me busy for awhile. I plan to get all the audiobooks since they’re so inexpensive (around $6.99 each).

Okay, I have laundry that needs to go in the dryer and the dog is feeling neglected, so I must end here.

Til next time,


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